insomnia once again rears her ugly head my direction.
i am so tired but i can't sleep alone.
i have a pill of e in my room and the desire to snoot the shit out of it it's amazing.
i know if i do i'll get in shit, but at least it'd make my hunger decrease.
i've got a long day of being fatigued and bored ahead of me.
it's 4:30 now, at about 7 i will run on the treadmill.
i had a great weekend, problem is vodka has 50+ calories a shot,
i smoked a hell of a lot of weed, drank so much, and went to some random apartment and snooted e off some girls table.
the whole glass table was covered in chalky white remnants of coke and lime green lines of e.
the atmosphere was so intriguing and so relaxing.
i was completely enthralled when i first entered the apartment, it was like a memory.
it smelt familiar, the lighting felt familiar, and the whole overall sentiment was so personal to me.
it was a very positive environment, cloudy with cigarettes and powered with drugs.
brilliant. extremely brilliant.
my sleep last night was completely dreadful, and tonight's has been no better.
i passed out so fast last night but only for a few hours.
i am craving strawberries so badly as this particular moment and i might give in to the desire.
i know i shouldn't, it takes too long to lose weight, but their so low cal.
my life finally is starting to feel under control.